This potent space of awareness filled with potential is consistent in my being and when I intentionally focus on my vision of love, the energy of the field of awareness intensifies. To focus on my vision, it is as simple as intentionally having a thought like, my dream is to be permanently in love forever and share in this with other human beings. My awareness is intensifying just writing this. It is like I have a preview of this vision I have had my entire life. It isn’t something you can really put into words. It really is just a potential, but I know the potential in every cell of my being. It is a cellular knowing. Every time I focus on my vision of love, this potential gets imprinted more into my being. It is at the point where I can only handle so much of it in each day. It appears to me that it will continue to be imprinted until my physical body is able to hold that much potential consistently and permanently.

I am putting the word “thinking” into quotes because the thoughts do not arise in my mind like normal thoughts would. It has become so clear to me that my mental awareness has become silence and that thoughts are arising out of my whole being. When I am engaged in some form of communication the thoughts emerge out of my whole being. When I am “thinking” it feels like the thoughts want to come out of my mouth. It is like they emerge and want to be spoken. But they emerge from the spacious awareness, they are not located in my head. The mechanism that controls awareness has moved from my head to my solar plexus or whole being.
This experience has become very fascinating to me, and I continue to have more revelations about this. For example, I was a patent attorney for about 9 years before I formally quit back in 2019. I am currently doing more lawyer work for financial reasons, and I am beyond fascinated by the fact that even in the context of reading and writing technical knowledge and legalese, my mental awareness is still silent. My brain does not process the information in the form of thought – the process of understanding or analyzing – the way it used to. My mental awareness is still silent, and the processing or thinking is still occurring from my whole being. This experience, e.g., doing lawyer work, has ironically deepened my realization of awareness, our true nature, and the process of awakening.

The fruition of this realization over the past few months is that I have become very aware of how awareness adjusts based on my focus or engagement in life. For example, my awareness is most expanded, and the energy associated with that expanded awareness is most intense when I am focused on my vision of love or even if I am just not engaged with anything at all. In the past month, there have been a couple of instances where this expanse of awareness was intense and I knew I had to get in my car and drive somewhere and both times had a freakout moment of, I can’t drive in this state. There is no way I can drive in this state. As soon as I get into my car, the awareness adjusts to suit the moment. Suddenly, I feel functional and fully able to drive. I am noticing this adjustment of awareness with everything I do and whatever I am engaged with. Regardless of what I am engaged with, the mechanism of awareness doesn’t change. The awareness is still located in my solar plexus – it’s not like it goes back to being in my head. What adjusts or shifts is the precision and focus of the awareness. It can zoom in to be focused on precisely what I am engaged with in the moment to be functional.

The greatest realization I have been having is that the awareness is no longer located in the head and being filtered through thought and projected out into the world. Instead thought, decisions, and actions are emerging from the awareness itself. What that means as far as I can tell is that more of the divine is being manifest in the material world and reality. It doesn’t even viscerally, perceptually feel like I am making decisions anymore. It feels more like decision are simply being made spontaneously in the moment they need to be made, I am no longer thinking but being thought – thoughts are emerging out of awareness. What is important about this is that the decisions and thoughts are wrapped in or being manifest in the world from the awareness. It is the awareness itself that is meaningful, real, and true.

I will end by saying that this depth of realization really started a couple of months ago when a few things happened. I became crystal clear that my life is dedicated to living out my highest vision and dream of love and to just focus on that, I accepted that I don’t have answers and that my brain has changed the way it operates, and I finally admitted to myself that I have been living consistently, for at least a couple of years, in a state of expanded awareness. It has been here and already is here! I am finally no longer in resistance to it! Another way to say this is I am no longer resisting the divine and our true nature!